

"Putting the Damage On" is another Tori song that can really make some people cry.The version became Harsher in Hindsight after Kurt Cobain's death. Tori's cover version of Nirvana's "Smells Like Teen Spirit" (originally from their Nevermind, the Amos version is on the EP release to Crucify)."Flying Dutchman", which is a powerful song about being a weird kid and feeling like an outsider.The verse starting with "Well, they all pretend they're orphans/and their memory's like a train" can especially strike a chord with some. Her cover of Tom Waits' "Time" (from his album Rain Dogs) is heartbreaking in the best way possible."Happy Phantom" is a funny song about death, until you hear it at the funeral of someone who loved it, at which point it becomes a bittersweet tearjerker.That might be one of the saddest but most beautifully sad experiences American popular music has to offer. Listen to it alone, at night, with your eyes closed. When Tori sobs "can't stop what's coming, can't stop what's on its way", it can strike a chord in one's heart.

Tori used a prepared piano to create the feeling of the titular bells tolling for a friendship that has been torn by a problem that can't be resolved. Although it was written for her now-husband, Tori later dedicated it to Matthew Shepherd, a young man who was beaten to death only for being homosexual. Her mother eventually passed away in May 2019, the same month Tori also lost one of friends in Nancy "Beenie" Shanks (named in "Father Lucifer" and "Jackie's Strength", as well as being the secondary character in "Raspberry Swirl"). "Mary's Eyes" and "Reindeer King" are renewed pleas for her mother to alleviate her suffering, again to a personification of death (the Death Midwife) and the Native American spirit of the Reindeer King (a nod to her mother's Native American ancestry). To continue being even Harsher in Hindsight, in January 2017, Tori's mother suffered a stroke that left her severely disabled, with aphasia.To quote a last.fm user, "The intimacy of this recording, from the chuckle to the partial sob is just startling." Tori later wrote a song dedicated to said brother: "Toast".She got better, but the song got a dark vibe when her brother turned out to be the family member that died. The song is about Tori offering herself to The Grim Reaper so he could let her mom live. Another Harsher in Hindsight moment: Tori wrote "The Beekeeper" while her mother was sick in the hospital.Tori made "Taxi Ride" a partial homage to Kevyn after his death. It contains the line "just another dead fag to you, that's all." Harsher in Hindsight when a gay close friend & make-up artist, Kevyn Aucoin, died (from kidney and liver failure, not AIDS). Scarlet finds out about a gay friend who died of AIDS. That effect is coupled with the lyrics "When you gonna make up your mind? When you gonna love you as much as I do?"Īnd you said you could find me here, even in Death. Especially the final chorus, where the strings suddenly drop out and Amos sings in a whisper against a minimal piano accompaniment.

